this open road...

26th December 2005
sometimes its sunny..other times its rainy...but it something i see...that leads me to be free..

sometimes its narrow...like there's no tomorrow...like the cloud's give sorrow..and it feels so hollow..

sometimes it's wider....like i feel a bit smarter...tho i wish i'm wiser..when in doubt U're nearer..

and just like a fresh heal...i ride ahead in these old wheels..be it dented be it real...i look ahead n i see no steel..i look behind not sure if its sealed..

the sun is up n so is me...i try my best to be just me..i ride ahead to see what degree...u can adapt to this old me..

sometimes its sunny..other times its rainy...but be whtever itLL be...this open road and silly me.

cheers!

thank U

11 December 2005

u,
the one who took it all...
the one who let me fall..
when nothing matters besides this wall..
then u left me to figure it all...
thank u.


u,
the one who made me sweet...
the one that skipped me a beat...
the one i secretly meet..
the one i borrowed this love a bit...
thank u.


u,
the one ive never met...
the one i wish i could've kept...
the one who could've save me from wet....
the one who could take this threat..
thank u.


u,
the one who keeps my blue...
the one who makes me new...
the one who always knew...
then one i shared this brew...
thank u.


u,
the one who showed life again..
the one that finds comfort in pain..
the one that shared this rain...
the one iLL never see again..
thank u.


u,
the one who taught me breathLess...
the one who fights for something worthLess..
the one who's just as thoughtLess...
the one who's just as clueLess....
thank u.


u,
the one i dunt belong....
the one i met not so long...
the one that made me strong....
the one that showed me this is wrong...
thank u.


and thank u,
to the one that believd in me...
to the one that realised me...
to the one that cheated me...
to the one that loved me...
to the one that left me...

i have nothing in return but......
thank u.

cheers!

mencari arti...

10 december 2005

hari ini bermimpi lagi. suatu yang indah di hiba ini. aku berlari menjauhi hari. mendekati diri mencari arti.

hari ini aku bersedih lagi. entah sampai bila berulang lagi. perasaan sunyi kian pekat selubungi. terusan jauh dari segala arti.

semalam aku terjatuh lagi. tersungkur harapan yang ingin dikecapi. aku tidak selalu begini. selagi gagah mencari arti.

semalam aku juga bermimpi. melihat pada yang telah terjadi. menilai pada segala komposisi.ternyata tidak kurang dari tragedi.lekas aku mencari arti.

semalam aku berharap lagi. suatu jasad menghadir kan diri. bukan sebarang yang dikehendaki . tapi yang menyimpan apa itu arti.

semalam aku menghilangkan diri. dari ceria dan sedia ini. aku hilang mencari pelangi. suatu yang hanya aku fahami. suatu yang hanya mempuyai arti.

semalam aku bermain api.tidak ku peduli luka d hati.aku degil meniti hari.selagi tidak ku jumpa mati.selagi itu ku mencari arti.

cheers!
p/s: lekasla pergi gundah ini....

rebah....

7 December 2005

kosong hati ini...
entah apa lagi yang perlu diisi...
harus kah ia diisi lagi?

sunyi datang lagi...
seperti yang semalam hari....
mengapakah ini yang terjadi?

sendiri ku lalui ini..
segala onak indah dan naluri...
sering ku tanya selama kah ini?

aku hembus lagi nafas ini...
rebah sehingga datangnya hari....
tidak perlu bertanya lagi...

ku hembus pasti...

cheers!

much calmer...

4th december 2005

my paper is less then 12 hours.....
ive still got loads more to memorize.....
its something im more of less fonder...
(but im much calmer)

been breathing "puffs" ...
more than my usual number...
to get high even tho its with filter..
(but im much calmer)

like usual im just a loner..
tho he's here to make me warmer...
still i wonder and still i ponder...
(but im much calmer)

im not for tommorrow..
dunt care about the year that follow..
hate to wonder whats sure to sorow
(but someHow ...........................................
...................................................................................................im much calmer)

cheers!
currycurry